Taking It Down A Notch

A few weeks ago, I blew out my left eye. My doctor said I had high blood pressure in my eyeball, caused by stress, which forced a cell behind my retina to explode. Everything was blurry, and I was in shock. And when Doc told me that I needed to de-stress, I became stressed.

Everyone I know is stressed. Everyone is wondering where the time goes while they’re running around wasting it. Everyone is “crazy busy” running to the thing, and then getting to the next thing, and cooking the thing to bring to the thing.  We’re all out of our minds.

And yet, I’ve been told to take it down a notch. But I don’t want to take it down a notch. I like being a princess of productivity. Yet, I realize, for my own health, I have to cool it.

After all, I’m too young and unimportant to be popping out eyeballs. Nobody’s life depends on me. Nobody in my immediate family is in pain. My bills are being paid, and my mouth is being fed.  Everything is okay.  If my office plants die and I forget a friend’s birthday, life will go on.

But it’s awfully hard to let go of that “go-go-go-and then go some more” drive.  So, I’m committing to small changes. Instead of running my typically four miles at the gym, I’m walking two on an incline. Instead of leaving my laptop on until 9:00pm, it’s powered down no later than 8:00pm. Instead of walking my dog for 45 minutes at lunch every day, I’m allowing other people to take care of her.

And to be honest, I feel a little lazy. I should be writing more. I could be sweating more. I should, I could, I want, I will.  The phrase drums through my head whenever I’m feeling less productive.

And yet, to slow things down, I simply tell myself that I am. I am getting exercise. I am treating my dog well. I am writing great things. (After all, It doesn’t matter if I’m running four miles a day or walking two. I’m still doing thirty minutes of cardio a day, which deserves a pat on the back.)

Yes, I’m taking it down a notch this winter. And by doing so, I remembering how good it can be to exhale. I’m spending more time enjoying the view from where I already am, and less time climbing the unending ladder. And frankly, my vision has never been more clear.

10 thoughts on “Taking It Down A Notch

  1. Last night I put the blade for my food processor through my finger. I was making a pot of soup at the same time I was filling the crock pot with chicken for another meal. Of course I need to slow down and breath. I have to keep reminding myself it doesn’t all have to been at the same time. There are 7 days in a week so what doesn’t get done today can always be be done tomorrow or maybe the next day.


  2. As a good friend of Nancy Campbell’s (who directed me to the Becky Pages, which I love!) and an IEC in Summit, NJ, I am trying to pass your message along to all of my students but it is so hard. I will keep on trying and I will try to remember your message myself. Thanks so much for your words.
    with a warm yet snowy smile, Carolyn Mulligan


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